I really bite.

stupid tutor

i thought it was going to get my results. really i was. i was so anxious, nervous, even though i kind of already knew what the outcome of the resutls were going to be. i went into the tutor's room. and we started talking. he didn't say anything about the results, so i thought that he would bring it up later.

tutor : your formatives are coming up, i hope you have been studying hard this past term..
suan : er, we've already sat for our formative exam. i thought i was here to get my results.
tutor : oh you have? oh. ok then i'll let you know what your results are when they come.

wtf.

Updates

chun how's birthday. jasmine's birthday. wenzhuang's birthday. all around the same time. would probably just celebrate it all together this saturday. i dunno yet :P no plans have been made. can't really celebrate this week as king's and ucl had exams..

next..

tomorrow i'm meeting up with my personal tutor. i think we get our results back. and siah, it was sap sap sui. just that i didn't study, and i'm afraid that i may fail badly, i'm not afraid that i'm going to fail. just don't want to fail that badly.. you know? it's ranked. the results are also pinned up on the notice board. so that sucks. studied up to metabolism 5. then went to take the exam. that's a total of seven lectures studied. the rest, oh well.. snicker. my friend was in an even better situation, he didn't even study at all. so before the exam, he commented that him taking the exam was like an a level student going in to take a medical student's exam. snicker. personally i think the a level student would have done better (cos the info more fresh in mind).. heh heh heh.

next..

my room is always so messy. so i decided that i'm going to be a neat person. i bought a shelf. self assembled, it took it an hour. i'm so pleased with myself. i got a new phone, yay. great camera. nokia phones have three kinds of cameras. first the blegh one. then the really good one. then the even better 1 mega pixel one! i got the really got one. it's really good! and i don't really need a 1 mega pixel camera anyway, i've got a camera, so what's 1 mega pix?? :D can't seem to get the infrared thing working on my laptop. so i guess i'll take a picture of the self assembled shelf another day. oh i'm so damn happy. the cleaning lady won't yell at me anymore (she has been in the past cos it's always so messy..)

mwah world...

sdf

exam tomorrow, wish me luck :P but it's not taken into account, so then wheni fail, it's ok (notice, when, not if.. heh)

blegh

Happy New Year

well my brother's back, muttered something about his apartment not being neat, then had dinner. he's gone to bed, jetlag aparently. hmm. my dad's fallen asleep too. i hear my mom pottering around in the kitchen.. she's going to bed too.

well.. happy new year everyone, 1 hour and 15 minutes in advance.. >D

Cleaning the house

in my family, everyone is very messy. everyone except for my brother. he's got this thing about having things neat, and things must be exactly where he left them. extremely fussy.

my parents and i are staying in his place while he's in malaysia. he called asking if we had messed up hsi apartment. we had of course, but my mom told him of course not!

so then he's due back in an hour, my mother is going around the house cleaning and cleaning and tidying and putting htings back inthe same place. it's so hilarious!

if only i had some of the neat genes, maybe my parents wouldn't have spent two hours on monday cleaning the whole of my room! heh heh heh. i fell asleep after one and a half hours!

Ugh

Again I don't know why I can't sleep. I think it's probably due to the fact that although I'm in London in winter, it's so bloody hot in here!! It's like a bloody oven. Ugh. One word. Ugh....

Bored

I've been living in my brother's living room for the past few days, I haven't left the room other than to use the toilet or to get something from the kitchen. I think the room is becoming a little small, I used to think it was pretty big.

Poor friend of mine, trying to get off the phone, but can't. He's obliged to talk to her. *snicker* Sorry, can't do much!! >D

I've been studying like crazy (which means.. study 45 mins, watch tv 30 mins, it's a constant cycle. and sometimes, the break is longer than 30 mins)... >D Exams coming soon. I've got a problem with my attention span, apparently a goldfish has a longer attention span than I do. And.. I know it's not something I should be proud of. I'm not! really.. >D Eugene's got one of those long long concentrating like laser beam kind of attentions pan... so... i can't disturb him, can i? :P

Blegh. who who who else is like me?

Hmm

I don't know why i suddenly feel very ... 'serba salah'. not really that. but i guess it's the closest to what i'm feeling.

last december, i was in a similar situation as i'm in now. not in penang because of exams in january. i met this friend. we became close. this friend was introduced to a friend of mine, and then they became friends. apparently now they're closer than i ever was with friend #1. i'm jealous! why??! ugh. and apparently #1 has a birthday soon, and AND i didn't know. hmmm this is all too strange for me now. wmuawhahwhahahhwhahaha.

so annoying, i wanna just kill myself. one year after we first met, i just wanna tell my friend i love her!!! >D i see you soon again in penang!! you know who you are!! :P

Asia's Tsunami?

Some scary disaster isn't it? CNN and BBC keep on showing scary clips of penang (however, they don't call it Penang, they just call it Thailand..). My friends back home just say 'no one we know is dead..'. My brothers don't tell me anything about the situation, just that they were waiting at the seaside for another wave to go bodyboarding. Growl. How annoying, I feel like slapping them. They have also volunteered at some relief society, and I really don't know what they're doing.. heh.

My parents are here, and they're not exactly the happiest of people, because back home so many things are happening. Makes me think I should have been home...

Nocturnal

Insomnia strikes again. Yippie.

Spoke to a friend from home today and she let me know more things, and these things just upset me more. Stupid boys.

Right, the comments thing doesn't work. Would appreciate it if the tag board (that thing on the right column..) was a little more alive. >D Hee..

Fun!!

Today woke up relatively early.. went to High St and bought a humidifier. The room is really really so dry and it's so annoying especially if I get a cough/cold or a sore throat. Also I've got super super dry skin and I need to get rid of that shit. Also I got a shoe rack, I need to tidy my room, my shoes are just all over the place.. it's about the best thign I bought today.

I got Eugene a Christmas present, a book. He helped me pick it out, so at least I know he likes it haha. We got Jasmine cluedo. She didn't know what the hell it was at first, so hilarious! :P hehehhe.

Anyways, going off now.. bye! :P

Muaaaaaaaaah.

Love you lots..

O happy day...

Ugh. Bad boys who kiss and tell are mean mean mean people. And mean friends too.

And also, Penang. Everyone is back home and I'm still stuck here, freezing my ass off. It's getting on my nerves, this cold. I shouldn't have said I wanted to stay here to study, no studying will be done and I'll just miss out on all the things that I've been waiting for for such a long long time.

On a lighter note, I watched the phantom of the opera, the play. The movie, I think i'll wait for my parents to come and then we'll watch it together. He suprised me, I didn't know we were going to watch the phantom. Yay. What a lovely surprise.

Spoke to YL the other day, was fun. Such a long time since we spoke. Pity it had to be about bad things.

And then again, back to the story which inspired this post. I suppose some people don't have it in them to be mature.

Ewww... Singaporean?

in between lectures, while the guys were on their ciggarette break, me david and eugene. they were looking for people to bum ciggarettes off. this girl, walked right up to david (singaporean) and said, "don't i know you from someplace...? oh right, at so-and-so party.." they continued talking. then she whipped out a pack of ciggies. david and eugene's eyes just went 'dingdingding'. david asked for a ciggieee. girl said yeah, but give me oral sex later. (shock #1. i'm open, i talk about things like that. but not to strangers..) then she said she can't stand uni life, it's so fucking stressful. and she's taking a gap year after next term. when asked why, she said 'life is so fucking stressful' or somethign to that effect. what was she doing? bio-chemistry. right. stressful indeed. :P (shock #2)

she then asked him which halls he was in, and which room. and he told her, 223. she said she had a friend in 222 last year (she's a 2nd year). but she always kept pissing the guy in 223 off. why? because she said "we were always having sex." (shock #3) eugene said 'WHAT?' and i just... well i just tried to be polite the whole way through.

then i asked, so where you from? singapore/ she said yes. eugene asked, "are you chinese?" she said "do i look like a fucking indian to you?" (shock #4. don't know why this shocked me, but i was shocked from the moment she opened her mouth so just bear with me...)

then the guys were talking. and she turned to me. (me with my mouth not fully closed..) she said you know i broke up with my ex about 3-4 weeks ago. and he called me the other day and he was so fucking pissed off at me, he accused me of sleeping with so many guys after we broke up! i thought woooohoooo. finally. normal! so i said "omg, how could he say that! so mean!" she said "yeah, i told him how can he say 4-5 guys is a lot..." again my jaw drops. (shock #5) i muttered/stammered something. she ignored me and continued "then he started naming names. and then it turned out to be about ten, maybe more. and then i told him ten give or take a few.. and he got annoyed and slammed down the phone. what a loser. it was over between us!" (shock #6). i quickly just left.

now tell me. do you think she was just trying to shock me? i don't think so. she seemed so.... sincere about the 'it was over between us' and the 'only about 4-5 ppl in 3-4 weeks!'.

ew..

EBM

evidence based medicine is just about the most boring thing ever. today's lecture, we were just given a bunch of figures to stare at. this was five mins into the lecture. when i woke up, it was still a bunch of figures. and lecture was over. ugh.

Nottingham Games

hmmm the games were ok i guess. i got to eat lovely food. and watch sweaty people play games. hmmm..... only downside i guess was the waking up at 5 in the morning. chun how had to shake me awake, because i slept through the alarm. he was staying over cos he, being the good sports secretary he was, wanted to send his king's people off. (king's tumpang the imperial bus cos there were only 5 of them)..

met many people there. didn't expect to see choo kean, but there he was. hmmm what else what else... nothing much

had laksa, nasi lemak and popiah. hmmmm..

didn't manage to meet up with bubu because he was elsewhere. nottingham is just so big. not at all like the london unis. now i knwo what they mean by 'campus university'.. i thought imperial was 'campusy' already. but if yout hink about it, it's the same. the notts campus is so huge you need to take a bus to places. i suppose you can say tha tlondon is a big big big hugeeee campus but just with better transportation service! >D

muaaaah. thank god i'm in london.