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June 30, 2004
Ugh
there's one thign i hate about going home. we have to pack. and because i'm moving from this hole to central london, i've got to move all my shit all over the place. and it's so troublesome. i was supposed to share a warehouse thing witha bunch of my other friends, and they forgot to count me in, yay how wonderful. so now i've got no place to store my stuff. i've got to lug all my shit to london and store it with ym brother. omg. i'm so annoyed. and my brother's not willing to store my stuff because he's going to be moving and then there's also my shit to move along. so then he's not a happy bunny.
but then again, neither am i.
Posted by Suan at 06:19 PM | Comments (6)
The end of it all
After one and a half years of slaving over shit, this is what happens. A bunch of us went up to Lloyd Park at 11pm at night. I just only arrived home, at 5am. Sigh. We walked deep into the woods, where there was this shack. We were (we doesn't include me, I'm recycling mine :P) burning the notes, the past exam papers, the everything.
I just went there. Played the 'weasel and mother hen' game, the pepsi-cola game.. the a e i o u game.
Was fun.
Now I want to rest.
Posted by Suan at 05:22 AM | Comments (7)
June 28, 2004
Weirdnesss
Due to hormonal imbalance, I think I got a bit annoyed with Kill Bill. And decided that I want a nice layout. It took me four hours choose which template to use. That shows how good my decision making skills are. Yay. Be my patient next time.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been having problems with acknowledging my stupidity.
I also think I need to get over stupid MBs.
Posted by Suan at 09:36 PM | Comments (10)
June 22, 2004
fucked.
started unit four bio on sunday, i can tell you, i didn't realise that there was so many things to know in unit four, and that i didn't know all that shit. there was unit five. and i haven't studied that too.
today i took the papers, and oh dearie me, hahaha.
first we sat for unit four. i thought. omg this is the worst paper i've ever taken in my life. haha. i was wrong. we thens at for unit five. now THAT was the worst paper i've ever taken in my life. in three days, i crammed unit four and unit five in to my brain. (you know the fat files? it's one and a half of those fat files, and more than half is double sided paper.) sigh. i don't think it was a good idea to start so late.
and on top of that, i've got the attention span of a rabbit.
pissed off.
now i'm hungry.
bye
Posted by Suan at 01:19 PM | Comments (0)
June 18, 2004
Last Day of College
I slept last night at 8.30pm. I woke up, at 8am this morning. Hm.. I don't know why I just felt so exhausted yesterday, the type of exhaustion you get after camp (the many many sleepless nights kind of camp). Blegh. So this morning, was a bit hyper.
In efforts to curb internet use, two days ago, I took the laptop charger adaptor thingy, brought it to school and left it in my locker. Crap. That was probably the worst thing I could've done. Honestly. The withdrawal symptoms. I'm in school now, using the internet. Sigh. I think I shall have to retrieve it later. I need the source of my life back. Hah hah harr..
Windy today, am not dressed. Leavers' photo taking session today, am not dressed. I think I'm always underdressed. What do you think... eh
Posted by Suan at 10:46 AM | Comments (3)
June 15, 2004
Sigh
Was supposed to go out with my mother's friend today but she cancelled on my because there was an attempted break-in at her place today and she had to speak to the police. They lived in London before moving to some semi-rural area (they moved closer to the son's school. Smart lad. ) Then say about four weeks ago, they moved, to the country. Hah hah haaaaa. So they're renovating. They've got no water supply at the moment. And the roof is off. They've got stuff in the house, no roof. I wonder why the bad people wanted to break in. Hmmm..
Me : So how big is the land anyway?
Her : Oh only about 3 acres.
Uh huh. Only about 3 acres. Right on. It might not be big compared to some others. But considering my house is 9.94% of her place, I think it's big.
My O2 phonebill. The basic tariff is 30 pounds. I've gone over 40 pounds the tariff. Sigh. If I don't use it anymore, it might just stay at 70 pounds.
On a happier note, my Vodafone bill came today, and it was 30.04. I'm so pleased with myself.
//edits//
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
YOU'RE SUCH AN IDIOT.
omgomgomg. YOU SUCK. And there you go, I can't mention any names.
//edits again//
from here
more info on what they are here
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
Posted by Suan at 05:42 PM | Comments (0)
June 14, 2004
Slapped
i got slapped today. :( it's so strange how when someone else even just tries to slap me, i move away and attempt to hurt them back. when it comes to my baby, i just stand there and get slapped. it's ok. i've only been slapped twice in my life.
once today. the other time, when i was in lower primary school and i said fuck. my parents were just pretty shocked.
i guess the other time i was abused (ok not abused.. punished physically) was when seong and i were just being normal kids, making lots of noise, fighting, screaming.. my second brother was studying for his a levels, and apparently he couldn't concentrate with the noise. my mother hit the both of us with the 3-D ruler, the one.. that looks like a toblerone bar.. the long one.. till it broke in half. that hurt. i think. that was probably ten years ago.
i don't think i had any other physical punishments.. other than those.
mmm i miss my mummy :P about 20 days to go. then it's HOME :D
Posted by Suan at 11:52 PM | Comments (5)
June 12, 2004
ouchie
i tried reaching my parents last night. i couldn't contact them. it was, at this time, already 4am. i tried til it was 4.25am. they were in chengmai, or somewhere in thailand. i panicked.
you see, i've got this stupid stomach, i normally get gastric. then i finished my supply of zantac. so my stomach very painful :( so i went out to buy some, omg, it was 7 pounds for 24 pills (and each 75mg only!!). i know it's about RM4 per pill, but when i have to fork it out myself, it's different. :P asked my brother to post me his stash, but he said omg just spend the money. during the exam period, just spend money, don't care. yeah sure. like we have so much to spare. my dose is normally 300mg. so i had to take FOUR? hmm.. i didn't read the box before i took the pills. so anyways, after having 550mg within 5 hours, i thought, hmmm feeling a bit funny. nausea, dizziness. stuff like that. read the box. "Do not take more than 2 tablets in 24 hours". wtf :P then i tried to sleep. i couldn't, then i tried calling my dad couldn't get through.
so i called your dad, kristy :P haha. called him. hello uncle, suan here. he said, "Oh yeah you're back!!!!!" i said, haha no i'm not. er help :P asked him if i could die of overdose. hahahahaha. he laughed and said no la, cannot wan. no big deal and all that :P harr. harr. harr. he said that over the counter (the one i bought) and prescription (the ones my dad gave) were different. it's ok. and i won't die :P haha.
this morning my dad called me and said no big deal, cannot die, no side effects wan, very safe drug, but don't over do it. mm. right.
i want my MUMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. sobsob
oh btw, if zantac doesn't work anymore, what will?
Posted by Suan at 11:17 AM | Comments (7)
June 11, 2004
Today
last night, i experienced the most hated kind of sleep. the kind of sleep where my mind is already shutdown, my eyes are tightly closed. but yet.. yet i'm still so aware of what's happening around me. the thunderous snores (a floor down) of my host (for those of you who don't know, i stay with a host family).. the stupid fan that just makes so much noise.. the screaming baby from across the road (the window is opened because it's just so hot).. and it's not like my big windows can be opened (there is a piece of paper attached to the handle saying 'DO NOT OPEN WINDOW'), so then it's just that small bit above the main window about three quarters of a foot by thee feet. sometimes i have to be half dressed before i can get to sleep. it's so damn hot. sigh. so anyways, back to the sleepless sleep. each time i opened my eyes, i hoped that it would be light. but then again, it's really misleading, summer, it's light by 4.30am. so anyways, i woke up this morning with the worst headache. why is it that when the exam period comes, my sleeping cycle just goes haywire? i sleep at 4-5am (normally when the sun is up already, the birds start chirping at about three :P) and wake up to go to school. sometimes i don't even take a nap in the afternoon. argh. i used to take naps.. and now.. now no more.
i thought because of the crap night i had, today's paper was gonna be total shit. however, the statistics paper was surprisingly easy. hope to get 100% whee. :P should be able to, unless i made some stupid careless mistake :P well that's seven down. "fifteen minus seven" more to go!! actually probably that minus two, cos i haven't started revising for physics 4 and pure math 2 yet. so then probably won't take that (them both are retakes). i already cancelled two papers. what a waste of 44 pounds. could buy so many things with that much money. :D yeah like say... a pair of shoes. i'm in desperate need of a pair.
oh hey, speaking of shopping... kristy apparently there's a sale where you are....? i'm probably your size. want to buy me things? :D pwease? i'm visiting you in sydney, you haven't come to see me here yet!! :D pwease? oooo thanks :P
".......
Now you think you're so damn fine,
You could rule the world,
No not mine,
I don't think so
God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much, that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
You know the scene that you're in,
And the people that you've been with,
Just get to me
But you think I'm not as cool
As you are so beautiful,
Who you foolin?
Well I'm here to tell you babe,
The game you're in, is just a game
So damn pretentious
God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you, and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
You think you're so beautiful....So beautiful"
--> Pete Murray - So Beautiful
Posted by Suan at 04:58 PM | Comments (1)
June 10, 2004
So beautiful
Pete Murray - So beautiful
//edits//
stupid wei ning was bored. so he decided to order me free stuff online. so he thought, what does suan need most? and i don't know why, but he came up with sanitary pads. so fine. he ordered me some free samples. they arrived at my house yesterday. i didn't open them until much later.
the idiot, he ordered, instead of sanitary pads, he ordered... 'trial pack, specially for bladder weakness'. what the FUCK was that all about??! omg. he said he knew that it was for bladder weakness, but he just didn't know what the difference was. OMG. why is it so difficult to tell apart? 'pads for bladder weakness' and 'sanitary pads'?? i just think he thinks himself funny.
test
Posted by Suan at 10:12 AM | Comments (0)
June 09, 2004
ow
i ran down as fast as i could, because he was already in school. haha. i had kept him waiting for about 40 minutes already. at least i didn't say i was on my way the five times he called :D so anyways, i forgot my laundry. i ran up the flights of stairs. i got my laundry bucket (yep, bucket. so what. it's a posh fancy bucket! and it's purple :D ) and i grabbed my housemate's bucket too. i stacked hers on mine. and proceeded to run down the stairs again.
whee. guess what. i missed three steps cos i couldn't see anything. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. luckily it was the last three steps, if not i'd probably be lucky enough to be excluded from the most important exam in my life (hey uni entrance is pretty important right?). it didn't do much for my oh-so-very knobbly knees. for the first time in a long time (i'm very clumsy, so i fall over often okay) i wished i had very fat knees that would be able to cushion the fall. ow. the floor was pretty hard. so now both my knees are black and blue. i can't wear that skirt i was going to wear on friday. oh wait, hah. i can't even fit into my only skirt anymore. and i wore it only once too. where is it i wonder..
Posted by Suan at 10:47 PM | Comments (6)
June 08, 2004
haaaaaaaaaaa
Needed to take a shit during the exam. omg :P
I was supposed to retake units 123 for Biology. I went to bed at 12.30am. Only fell asleep after three. Needless to say, I woke up a grumpy grandmother. I called the school and told them I would only take units 2 and 3. By the time I did units 1 and 2, I’d be too tired to do anything already for the third paper, which requires most of the thinking anyway. Didn’t study for unit one anyways, so I wouldn’t be able to get higher than 88 anyways.
It’s not that I’m one of those kiasu Singaporeans, that I must get higher than 90 in each paper lest I fail. It’s just that I’m afraid that I wouldn’t be able to get an A in Bio. Not that I need to get one to enter university, it’s just that I want to get one. Just for fun. :D I mean who doesn’t want to jump at a chance to get As. Right? So anyways, yeah.
Oh oh let me tell you guys, it was at it again. It annoyed me. It is eeeevil. And I can’t say what it is. Because it knows. It knows many things…
Posted by Suan at 03:56 PM | Comments (6)
June 07, 2004
tomorrow!
tomorrow is the first day of the exams. well technically, it would be the third day, but the past two exams have been ... well let's just say that the exams tomorrow would probably, in one way or another, determine the fate of my results. i hate biology. i mean learning about the human body is fine. but when it comes to making us learn everything about the small little stupid organelles of a plant, it's structures and functions, i'm against biology. ew.
called my parents last night :P cried. so stupid. haha. i said i want my mummy to come, but they thought i was joking all along. I WAS SO NOT JOKING. i reckon they thought i was big enough to handle the exams on my own. what utter nonsense. i'm a mummy's girl and a daddy's baby. i don't care. i want my mummy and daddy around i want i want!
but it's ok. i got over that quite quickly. my mother said 'don't be silly, girl. stop crying. serves you right for going online so often and not studying earlier.' she's the most sympathetic mum i've met, yep.
so neways, had fun today. only 4 hours sleep, but i wasn't all that grumpy today. tired yes, grumpy, not yet? i think. heh. probably will get annoyed when i see her face. but it's ok. no need to see her face anytime soon. i guess.
wish me luck for exams. quick!
Posted by Suan at 05:15 PM | Comments (5)
June 06, 2004
NEW GUEST BLOGGER
omg, eyen is just so troublesome. said i have to 'intro my beloved guest blogger'. acks.
okay, my guest blogger is Qui, which means "who" in French, i think. ask her, i'm not too sure. she's sixty seven with eight grandchildren. she's expecting another grandchild soon, in august, if i'm not mistaken. she only just recently married her firstborn's wife's cousin's next door uncle's nephew's step brother. she thinks the sex is still great at 67. she loves gardening and often hosts the local neighbourhood bridge game, to which everyone attends and raids the fridge.
i met her online when her second grandson's birthday balloons all burst due to the hot weather (the balloon man decided to pump them up more than just a little firmly). she was looking for a person who could blow as well as herself. so i offered my services, after blowing every one of the 213 balloons we just collapsed in exhaustion. we were good friends since then.
she's from london, she's one of those people who're sophisticated. her shoes must match her socks which in turn must match her top and her bag to accompany her outfit is chosen after say, 15 minutes of scrutiny.
and oh yeah... mmmmuuuuaaaaaaaahkssss celeste, my fatty >D
Posted by Suan at 11:15 PM | Comments (4)
Fatties *muaaaaaaaaaaaah*
Like I said the other time, there is a fine line between ugly and adorable. Thus the word ‘cute’ is coined.
There is also a fine fine line between love and hate. Someone wise once said that the part of the brain that controls the emotions of love and hate are the same. Just the other day, I hugged my baby and said, “I love you, my fatty”. Hah, I’m sure you can imagine the reaction. *shock horror gasp* “I AM NOT FAT!!! But I love you too.” Yippie. Loves me too. Loves me too. Loves me too. Haha. I know you’re not fat :P
I’ve noticed that even though you’re not fat and I’m beginning to be very fond of you, I’ll show my affection by calling you fat (example: Mmmmm you’re so fat! *pat pat pat*. But I’ve also noticed. When you piss me off greatly, and I’m frustrated to the point of tears, I’ll call you fat too. An example. We were pissed at this guy and we were bitching about it. And we came up with : “There is no other reason. It’s not his fault. He can’t help it. He’s just FAT.”
Posted by Suan at 02:18 AM | Comments (6)
June 05, 2004
guest.
yay we've got a guest blogger. say hi.
hi.
Posted by Suan at 08:58 PM | Comments (0)
What I like
Hahaha. i remember there was once, a lady was carrying a baby. it was the ugliest baby in the world. remember, kristy? i think it was one of those miss lee days. anyways, it was so ugly that i thought it was the most adorable thing in the world. i just think that the ugly boundary and the adorable boundary is right next to each other, and the thing seperating them, it the 'cute' region. that's why cute actually means ugly but adorable.
ooooo when i think of that oh so very damn ugly baby, i just want to squeal and squeal even more.
oh right.
and yes. i was a very ugly baby :D i would have loved me.
Posted by Suan at 03:23 AM | Comments (0)
June 03, 2004
siiiiiiiiiiigh
as the exam draws near, the tension in the air around us is almost tangible. yet i don't quite feel the panic rising yet. i wish it would come soon, this familiar feeling of panic.
please come soon!
Posted by Suan at 10:55 PM | Comments (0)
June 02, 2004
Mm
Just about the cutest pictures around :D Mmm
Posted by Suan at 10:54 PM | Comments (3)
June 01, 2004
crap days
today is just one of those days when i just wanna cry.
Posted by Suan at 06:41 PM | Comments (3)