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May 31, 2004
first impressions
azlan's first impression of me would be based on the image of me vomiting all over the place when he came over to watch a movie at my brother's place. it was two months in to term and we didn't know each other very well. after the spm results came out, my brother had me over to london and we celebrated. he forced the alcohol down my throat, he told me that i was an embarrassment to the family, i couldn't take my alcohol. (my dad was 100% behind him. they're all terrible) so, haha, i had to prove it to him, and within a span of, say 1.5 hours, he had me drink so many shots and down so many kinds mixed drinks that i was pretty 'happy'. and azlan came over after we came back home and watched a movie. then my stomach chose that time, unfortunately, to rebel. but you see, first impressions are wrong. i don't like to drink. i don't like going clubbing. i don't like any of those things. i mean i don't mind but i'd so much rather be hanging out in someone's house with my friends. sigh.
so anyways, first impressions. they don't count. not always, because they're mostly wrong. there's this guy in school who was like... 'the bad kid'. he did stuff like print busp asses and used them, sold them, stuff like that. smoked weed. and stuff. (but the weed bit is no big deal. kids are kids are kids are kids). then four days ago, we started speaking. and i realised, he's not the bad kid i thought he was. muahahhahahahahah wonderful. oh he doesn't quite like ctc's basket ball girl too. haha wouldn't be the first. so anyways, i retract all the things i said about this kiddo. he's a great guy. after the six hour brain frying phone session, i can't help but say he's as bitchy as i am! finally, someone else.
stayed over at xian's last night. at 3.50am. we called him. haha woke him up. hilarious.
suan : hey hi
him : mm hi
suan : sorry to wake you up, but just wondering if you know if azlan's awake right now? *bursts into laughter*
him: what?? what're you talking about? stop laughing. all i hear are birds chirping!
haaha. feel so bad, waking ppl up so early. but so bloody what. xian called azlan and he was awake.. serenading her. tee hee hee.
so right. gonna be long winded. gonna say again. first impressions. wrong abt him. whahahhaa
bwaaaaaaaaai.
Posted by Suan at 04:17 PM | Comments (0)
May 27, 2004
owwwie
what i need is a new body, that's what i need. why?
#1 - it's got fat in unwanted places
#2 - it's not got fat in the wanted places
#3 - it hurts
lil decided that wrestling with big boy azlan was too much for him. he decided to take on someone his own size. me. well i'm not really his size. i'm barely a hundred pounds and he's... he's just one of those guys with the muscles, not much fat, well he's this one. body ache.
i was able to pin him down actually, initially. because i'm not the strongest person around, i used his own body weight to pin his arms underhim, and each time he tried to move, i pushed his head down with my arm. mmm. fun. he did say suan rocks. but he didn't say it loud enough so that people could hear. dammit, if i had kept it up, if they didn't come to rescue him by tickling me, i would've made him yell it out loud! dammit. then he took his revenge.
they call it one of the submission positions/moves, i think. not too sure. you know the one where the victim (in this case, it would be me) is face down on the ground and the legs are brought up backwards, and pressure is put on the uh legs. so basically it means that my back's fucked up. he wants a rematch tmrw. i can't even walk properly. cibai.
Posted by Suan at 11:25 PM | Comments (5)
May 26, 2004
Lloyd's Park! :D
the guys have been going to the park to play american football , or rugby, i don't know the difference. all i know is that they've been groping each other, fondling each other's privates. so much for the manly games, they just love the excuse to rub each other all over dammit. it's just sick. they start off wrestling apparently. yeah 'wrestling'. yep. uh huh.
wheeee mebbe go tmrw after physics. yay. yay. yay. :D
shyan and seong may come down to bring me food. so nice my brother's gf, :D she said that during the exams i should be getting proper food, she actually volunteered to cook food and bring. she's a great chef. apparently, you learn how to be a great cook in medical school, esp third year when you have run out of money. haha. well my brother's got no more money, so she cooks. lovely girl. muahahahahaha. love her. love them both actually. although i'll probably never admit it to my brother :p
Posted by Suan at 10:10 PM | Comments (8)
May 25, 2004
best friends turned enemies
they were joined at the hip. it's strange when you see guys so attached, finishing each other's sentences, taking care of each like this these two. almost spooky actually. when girls do it, i think it's fine :P yeah i'm biased, so what. i don't like male-male intimacy. female-female.. hmm another story :P
so anyways, one of them was infatuated with this girl. and the other one, being the little geek of a boy he was, wasn't bothered with girls, well not much anyways. the girl didn't like the first boy. however, she did fancy the second one. and so after months of toying/rejecting/playing kite with the first one, she went for the kill. tee hee hee hee heeeeeeeee. and since every guy, says cahyadi, is horny no matter what they say.. second one had his fun and still is having his fun with the girl. and girl likes it. he likes it. they both do. what about the first one? hah. that was the end of the siamese twins.
now first one doesn't like to even be in the second one's presence. well although we know that the second one shouldn't have done what he did, the first one should give it time.. to forget :D what do you think. i think life is so much more than the opposite sex. although to have life, you have to have the opposite sex.
ok right, the point of my story isn't all that nonsense. the point is why the hell does the first one have to flick me with his finger (okay, it doesn't sound painful, but it does because if it lands on the back of your unsuspecting fat arm.. it hurts, and it hurts bad. it's one of those bad hurting flicks) because the idiot didn't like being in the second one's presence? sniffles.
you see, at the end of the day, it's all about me. the world revolves around me. well this blog should anyways, since it's mine. sometimes it revolves around shen's booobies too thought. that's the only exception.
Posted by Suan at 01:38 PM | Comments (5)
May 23, 2004
Dido
has just about the best voice in the industry i think. absolutely heaven, listening to her. that's just what i think anyways.. :D tee hee hee.
yesterday i spent the majority of the night chatting with this guy from school. hilarious. apparently he's got a friend who's dad works in some government agency. so then if you give him your dad's name, he'll be able to tell you where you live and all your phone numbers. it doesn't go into more detail than that, unfortunately.
so anyways, he got my dad's name and keyed it in. passed me all the info. you can imagine how thrilled i was. so haha. i tried this other friend's dad's name. they said "name found. no details." my friend (who was checking this for me) said that the only other time when that happened was when he tried to check up on another friend's dad who was a minister. whoaaaaaaaaaaaa. talk about high profile man. so fun. so cool. yay.
oh by the way, seriously, you guys have a terrible problem about the comments thingy. if i wanted people to visit and ignore totally the comments link, i wouldn't have put it there in the first place right? arghhhhh this sucks. i'll delete the stupid tag board (oh no then no one will come right??!) slap slap slap all of you.
Posted by Suan at 03:04 PM | Comments (10)
May 22, 2004
life so fun sometimes >D
Kristy, I bet you can guess whot his person is. Guess! >D
She's in italics. I'm not. I don't know how else to get icq chat logs, i copied and pasted all this shit ok.
hey im going out with a guy 2 yrs my junior
hahahahaha
wat abt u??
wtf??! :P
www.screwyoubabe.com
go to usergalleries.click on suan. see pics :D
i not going out with anyone.
wat pics? porn??? yummy
yupsssssss
im a paedophile
yay
omg you sick freak
hahahaha
my sis says she wants to buy baby clothes for him
WTF :P
okie
wat abt the pale guy?
wat happened to him?
nothing don’t want to talk abt me, about you now
hahahahhahahahahah
is he fat ? :D
nope, he's rather skinny
ah you crazy fuck.
me? crazy?
ive mellowed down a lot
:þ
ARE U STILL HAIRY AND SKINNY???? im still botak n flat
hahahaha
cibai don't say these thigns to me
look at the fucking hot pics of me la dammit. hairy? no. skinny? i wish.
www.screwyoubabe.com
is it true tat u grow more hair when its cold???
hahahahaha
maybe i shud go there
then might grow more hair
nonsense la
like that i be come a baboon d.
oh my god
tat's you/!?!??!?!
no... can't be....... she looks like a girl......
with thin widdle eyebrows?!?!?!?!?!??
wat's with the hair.//!?1/1/1/1?!
GROWL
UVE GOT BOOBIES!!!!
hahahah
im so mean
no no the boobies, don't know why looking so damn big. and they're real too.. not maximisers.whee
can i touch them when u get back?
er...
no >D
it's the dress. boobs in real life.. they're not that big
can i still touch them?
no
please
no
fine. y did u break up with pale face?
hahah fun. what to do la
life funner without attachments
really?
no. long story. next time. now i sleep. bwai.
bye.
Posted by Suan at 02:31 AM | Comments (6)
May 20, 2004
Sometimes rain is bad
... it makes you sick.
Felt like crap today, was bad. And to make things worse, after dinner, we got caught in the rain. Crap. Lucky for me I brought a jacket, but it wasn’t waterproof. There are times where I like to walk in the rain, but then again, there are times (like this) when the rain just annoys the crap out of the most tolerable person . At least for the past week or so we had really good weather.
School wasn’t too bad, although sometimes boring. Tired and hungry as usual. Came home earlier than usual, had a nap. But at five, when school ended, I just had to be awoken by noisy bothersome pests. Asking me where we were going to eat, and basically I don’t really remember what else they called about, but I do know that I was quite pissed off after the fifth call. Almost turned off my phone. But then again, we all know how I’m so damned dependant on my phone that if I turn it off, I might not be able to breathe. Okay, that’s obviously not true. It’s not that important to me. Ha.
Posted by Suan at 09:08 PM | Comments (1)
May 18, 2004
HFB.
I think I’m one of those people who have to wake my sleepy body up with a shower. It's also cleaner. Honestly, I don’t see how people can wake up, change and go right to school, it’s gross. Disgusting. It’s DIRTY. Unhygienic. Ew.
So I went to class, was early for the fatty’s fucking lecture. Her voice is so shrill it sounded like your uncle’s next door neighbour’s cat with arthritis getting humped by a dalmation. Honestly. Fucking annoying. I could’ve just been a bit grouchy, I guess. James I think was a little surprised. Each time the bitch said something, I muttered something really rude in return. Tee hee hee. I love doing that.
There was once, the first ever class. She was asking everyone to settle down. So er, she said, “Can everyone just settle down?” Then being me (automatic reflex), I imitated her voice, (think cat getting raped by big strong dog again) “Can everyone just settle down?” Quietly, or so I thought. Ha. She looked at me and said, “You, what’s your name?” Being the defiant bitch of a child I was, I glared at her and said, “Suan.”. Nyukk nyukk nyukk. That was the beginning of a wonderful new friendship for me. MUaahahahaha.. not.
On Monday, she asked us to write her an A4 page of what we thought of her teaching methods. Andre said, “Miss, can we submit the thing anonymously?” haha. Haha. Haha. Haha. Haha. She said yes. She just signed her death warrant. Well not really. So I think there aren’t going to be many nice things said about her, since we all think she sucks big time. Muahahha. And why call her miss anyways, she’s married dammit. Poor husband, tiny in comparison to that huge fat baboon. *growl*
//edits//
Oh oh and also. We were talking the other day among ourselves. The students who attend my stupid college, they’re all so fucking smart already. So if they have the stupidest teacher around… they’ll probably get good results too, but then again, I think HFB (huge fat baboon) will have most of her students scoring Bs. mUhahahaha. Me one of them. Cibai.
Posted by Suan at 09:48 PM | Comments (2)
May 17, 2004
Three days.. or so.
It lasted only three days, or less actually, if you count last night's five hour straight bum numbing pins and needles online session. Ban myself from the internet? Fuck that.
I was wrong. I was wrong about her. Really I was. I think that after all the bad things that I’ve done to her, I deserve to have my friendship thrown right back into my very guilty face. Terrible terrible me. But she’s also been terrible to me. So I’m not feeling that bad.
Oh look. I’ve got myself a stalker. Celeste added me to friendster. MUhahahahhaha. Okay la, not stalker la. I luff her, how to call her stalker. MuAAaaah.
Loveliest picture around this.
Posted by Suan at 12:57 AM | Comments (3)
May 14, 2004
sigh
I'm unplugged myself. The laptop is neatly packed inside the stupid laptop bag, shoved under the place where I hang my clothes. I guess the only place I would be able to access the internet would be in school. Unless of course the weekend gets too boring and I don't feel like spending two pounds an hour to play CS.. I might just fish it out again. Oh this sucks.
But what sucks more is the death of Nick Burg. Well that's what I think anyway. I really do want to see his execution, really I do! But it's just that, it might not be such a nice thing because it might be, in some way, disrespecting him. If your brother/son/friend got killed in that manner and the execution was put up on the internet for just anyone to view it, you wouldn't be too happy about it, would you? My friends have got it. I'm going to be really mean and watch it. Apparently the head didn't come off with the first blow, it took several tries. Or something like that. I feel quite bad right now, and I know I'll probably feel worse after watching it. Feel bad. Very bad.
They're asking me to go play CS. I have no more money! I hate it when old addictions just come back. Dammit.
Posted by Suan at 03:16 PM | Comments (5)
May 13, 2004
Crap
you know all this crap about me not using the internet so often anymore.. yeah. it's just crap. and i think it's gonna be crap for a while. exams.. no big deal. fail only. simple.
eyen : haha, you didn't get my joke meh, read the past posts and see la.
having a biology teacher who seems to think that teaching means giving us past papers with the marking scheme. well it works fine for the AS level, but not now when we need to write stupid foot long essays, right? the marking scheme just says things like "reference to the dna structure". sigh. they could at least make the marking scheme more informative right. the bloody lazy english exam people. damn you.
no wait. damn you, you stupid university going-college tutoring-tuition giving sorry assed excuse of a biology teacher. i pay six bloody thousand grand a bloody term and they give me someone who knows jack shit. right.
Posted by Suan at 05:59 PM | Comments (3)
May 12, 2004
Muah
Aw Kris.. I can't help it if every parent just loves me to bits right. I can name a few who would be pretty much disgusted with me you know.. :D
And hey, not only parents are disgusted.
nik says:
when hot guys see u .. they will run away after hear u swearing
*whine* Blegh. What hot guys. None! NONE AT ALL! I want hot guys!
Then I'll be a lady, baby.
Siah : I'm gonna be good girl already... :D Nomoreeeee. And you're slow if you didn't laugh at the joke, I'm a good joke/story teller!! (Don't listen to Kristy if she decides to comment on that)
Oh btw people, CSed today. TOtally got my ass whooped. Wasn't a good day. First couple of games weren't too bad though. But wtf is de_dust2 (or whatever the name is). Stupid crap shit map. Ugh. First time played it, believe it or not (Well I think, at least). Tee hEe hee.
//edits//
there's nothing like eating reese's cups at 2.40 in the morning.
Posted by Suan at 07:09 PM | Comments (4)
May 11, 2004
*Sniff*
installation of cs was a no go.
some form of evil divine intervention perhaps.
cibai. language has to improve.
Posted by Suan at 09:22 PM | Comments (3)
May 10, 2004
A new me
No longer shall I privilege the internet with my oh-so-wonderful presence. From this day forth, instead of “Suan – internet addict”, I shall be known to others as “Suan – boring person who has to sacrifice all the pleasures of life for about 8 weeks”. How about that. We’ll just see how long I can last. Going to put the laptop FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR AWAY FROM ME. I must do well and not fail (to keep it away from me :D).
I’m installing CS in my computer tomorrow. If you guys call me, and I don’t pick up the phone, it means I can’t hear it… as CS is kinda loud.. I shall be installing CS tomorrow but I don’t think I’ll be playing much. So please, call and check up on me! >D
Ee Yean.. Muah! :D So sweet, message me.
GALLERY HAS MOVED PEOPLE. Here!! and click on user galleries. and then obviously suan.
Let me rant now. Just a bit.
The world is an awful place because of a certain kind of people. The fact that I’m doing work, it scares some people, doesn’t it? MuAhaHAhaHhAHhHAhahha
well fuck you, you goddamn sons of many billion bitches (oh and not to forget you bitches too). oooOooOoOooh my language. how i have to stop being so rude. no one will wanna marry me then.
Posted by Suan at 09:47 PM | Comments (10)
May 09, 2004
Sniff. I want to play more CS.
Two pounds an hour for counter-strike is a fucking rip off. All I’m doing is wasting my parents’ money. Hah. Also it’s a most interesting form of gratification. Nyukk nyukk nyukk. Oh the days where we used to put home clothes in our school bags and rush to the cyber cafes after school to change in the toilet (school uniforms weren’t allowed in the cafes I think). OoOOooOo.. I also remember George telling us about how the police came in while he was playing CS and he pretend to be from one of those Chinese schools that started in the afternoon. Oh the days where we didn’t have lunch before tuition but instead stayed in the bloody cyber cafes, oh sooo fucking fun! And oh so fucking cheap too.
Can’t wait to get the CS cd from Azim so I can so kick butt next time. Azim’s got this dedicated server running and so everyone on fucking broadband can play. Cibai.
Got a text this morning :
“If tomorrow were to be the end of the world.. what will you do? I wish I could see you, sit next to you, gently hold your hand and whisper to you and say… PUKIMA!! It’s time to die.”
Oh I love you Cheryl! :D Too bad it’s 24p to reply overseas texts.
Yao : Imperial College. If I can make the fucking grades.
Cel (and everyone else speculating about the boobies) : How come no one said anything about a maximiser? Wtf. Har har. But NO. They’re real baby. OoOOoOoo yeah.
Posted by Suan at 09:50 PM | Comments (19)
May 08, 2004
hEEhee heee
International Evening was the same as last year. Except since I was wearing the Vietnamese traditional costume, I walked with the Vietnamese and held their flag. Yunn said that I betrayed Malaysia. Heck, whatever :P I had so much fun trying to say ‘I am a Vietnamese’. I gave up and just stuck to ‘dit meh mai’ or however you spell it. :P
Pictures? Hell yeah. here!!
Going to bed now.. I love you all. Well not really going to bed la. but whatever :D heee.
Posted by Suan at 02:55 AM | Comments (9)
May 06, 2004
Whineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I cried today. :P My friends were practicing for International Evening, their musical piece. Then I was listening to my friends sing and all that, then suddenly tears just sprang from my eyes. I tried so hard to keep my eyes at the watering stage, but no.. they just had to FLOW dammit. It’s like how I cried in form four when the form fives were leaving. Well no not really, I cried then because I knew I was gonna leave for the UK the year after that. I cried today because sobsobsob MICHELLE IS GOING TO GLASGOW!!! WE’RE ALL GOING AWAY… SCHOOL IS GOING TO BE OVER… THERE’LL BE NO MORE US. Sniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiff. Bloody fault of the rusty leaky tap. Cry what, no one else cares.
BUT on a happier note... It’s International Evening tomorrow! Can’t wait. I’m wearing a Vietnamese costume dress thingy. For those who do not know what it is.. let’s just say that it’s probably the most revealing thing next to a swimsuit :P well no.. not really. You guys know what a baju kurung is right. Then imagine the top having a slit all the way up to the bra. Then with that baju kurung top with the slit, you wear a pair of trousers. White. Except that I don’t have the white pair. I might wear jeans, but it’s gonna be so weird :P I know it is! :D
But then again… it’s gonna be sooooo cool people!! OoOOoOoyeah! Don’t worry I know everyone wants to see the oh-so-hot pictures of me. Will be up most definitely. Oh yeah :P
I went to the local GP to get myself registered, because for medical school entry, we have to do all this shit tests. And I cannot have people poking me with sharp objects. I have this phobia. It sucks, I know. How is it possible to be a doctor then, right? Then anyways, the lady said that I have to go for this check up thing. And of course I was so agreeable. Then she said well your appointment for the blood test is next Thursday. I was freaked out. I told her that I decided to change my mind and I’ll do the blood testing in Malaysia. Whahahahaha. Chicken shit I know :P
Posted by Suan at 06:55 PM | Comments (5)
May 04, 2004
Sniff
On Sunday, my camera fell on the ground. As I saw it falling, my heart just stopped. It was like time just stopped. Well not stopped, but slowed. And I saw it fall from his lap on to the tar road. Now it has these scratches and dents and now it’s not perfect anymore. I’m pretty much annoyed. I know I don’t really take care of my belongings, but I really wish I had been the one who scratched it first.
I now know how Cheryl felt when I did something to her bass.
I now know how Kristy felt when I did something to her guitar.
Sowweeee :D
//edits//
I found this funny. DOn't know if you guys will or not :D tee hee hee.
[06:31:01 PM] Other person: hello
[06:31:06 PM] Other person: are you there?
[06:32:17 PM] Suan: hellooo :D
[06:32:18 PM] Suan: yep
[06:32:19 PM] Suan: just woke up
[06:32:24 PM] Other person: mm
[06:32:27 PM] Other person: must ask you smth
[06:32:35 PM] Other person: what did I do wrong to xian?
[06:35:16 PM] Suan: i don't know
[06:35:17 PM] Suan: why
[06:35:31 PM] Other person: she's totally refusing to acknowledge my existence
[06:44:10 PM] Other person: hello?
[06:44:14 PM] Other person: are you there?
[06:46:10 PM] Suan: yes i am
[06:46:11 PM] Suan: sorry sorry sorry sorry :P
Posted by Suan at 02:38 PM | Comments (27)
May 03, 2004
Of Loveable Psychos
This girl is pretty, she's talented in everything she does. When she grows up, she wants to be a neurologist to study neuroscience, at Imperial College. Whee. We'll see more of her I guess.
We don't normally speak. But yesterday, we did. And the only thing I got out of our conversation was this (other than the other thing that I got out of the conversation of course *wink*):
when i see you baby,
i get so excited,
my love gets so concentrated
i'm containing a building pressure!
so i just burst! burst! burst!
hell, i just explode
HIGH VOLTAGE BEAMS OF LOVE shoot from my body
NO GRAVITY, i'm levitating
look at me, i'm FLYING!
baby, don't run away!
did i scare you?
She wrote it. Why? I don't know.
It makes you think, doesn't it? :D
//edits//
I wrote this down after listening to the song. I hope it's correct. I must say my BM sucks. I don't know how many playbacks I had to make. I didn't want to search on the net. 'Cos it's more fun this way. It's better than having to study for the stupid mock tomorrow, isn't it?
HERE
Posted by Suan at 04:47 PM | Comments (5)
May 02, 2004
Of Rotten Papaya Milk and Decomposing Flesh
I seem to be the only one among my friends blessed (cursed??!) with a nose that can sniff out the worldly smells.
Say when you’re eating lemon chicken, do you suddenly gag because the tastes and smells of the wet wood and rotten chicken insides from the never-washed chopping board just overwhelm you? No? Well not everyone is so lucky.
Do you, when you walk into a small room, suddenly stop dead in your tracks because suddenly the stench of bloody rusty iron, dead decomposing flesh and rotten fruit waft by? No? You should be happy.
I was walking up the stairs behind this girl. The stench of her blood was so overpowering that it made me lag behind a bit more so that I wasn’t nose-to-bum with her. Heck so that I wasn't head-to-foot with her dammit. *gAg*
WHY do I smell these things? I can only imagine the worse smells yet to come when I go to medical school. Yippie. I can’t wait. To be trained to sniff out certain things. I can't wait.
Posted by Suan at 02:14 AM | Comments (6)