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March 29, 2004

Hurry

I thought about it. I wasn't sure if it was safe to post. I don't know. Let me just say that if you do know who I am, please don't let other people know that this is where I blog, that this is where I talk to myself. So I ask you, please, keep mum. Also you might not know what I’m talking about. As I said, this is where I talk to myself. This place is more for me than anyone else.

I am so relieved that she called today to tell me that it wasn't my fault. That none of it was my fault. She said that she believed that I might have thought that it was my fault for the situation that you are in right now. She told me that it was your own fault that you are not able to pull yourself out of the shit-hole that we got you into. Although I helped you into that shit-hole, I was not to blame. Because you should be strong enough to get out of the shit.

Also, she told me not to contact you again, as this would only open the gates to your hell, your suffering.. as right now, you are wounded and hurt. And the reason why when you speak to me, only hurtful words come out is because you're wounded, and the wounded lash out. I understand that. You need to forget me. To forget what we shared. To erase all such memory from your messed up brain. To concentrate on your exams. To get all your As.

Only.

Only I do still want to talk to you.

I’m so sorry that I was not there when you needed me. I just wish that you will one day be able to forgive me. I really think that this is the best, us not being together. It is the best in the long run. I am so sorry for what I did. Or what I didn't do.

This sappy entry sucks big time. I never do this. I never get this sappy. And especially, not in situations like this. Crying in movies is fine. Not this. I don't cry over things this.

I’m so sorry I fucked up your life. I still love you.

Get over me soon please. So we can speak.

Posted by Suan at March 29, 2004 09:14 PM

Comments

i clicked on this comments link and stared at it for ten minutes and i still dont know what to write.

i guess i get half of what you are writting..

but i still dont get the other half.

that dosent matter i guess.

but you know what? i seriously think you made the right decision.

love aint supposed to be that way.

its 30 minutes diii and i still typed nothing!
bleh.

i shall tell you what i always say to my darlings.

ahem.it will take some time,but eventually,you
will look back and laugh at yourself.why?haha.i
have no idea.but u will look back and laugh.if you dont,tell me.i'll make you laugh.

i know i'm 15 hours away from you.you can always spam my email like you always did last time.just
dont spam the hotmail one.i dont check that.
muahaha. (its a nicer way of saying,"i'll always
be there for you.and if you ever ever ever need
anything,or someone,haha. i'm only like er 15 hours away from you".)distance dosent matter.lol.

and yeah,you should leave him alone.for now.

take care n god bless k.
have a safe journey back babe.
muah

Disclaimer : all the things above i typed,i mean it provided er...what i think you wrote is indeed
correct.get it?..i dont either.

P/S : i hate the comment spam protection thingi!
will find a way to disable it!

Posted by: eeyean at March 30, 2004 01:10 AM

i don't understand what you're saying either, but i think from what i gathered, from what little i gathered more like it.. you seem to still like that person? and er, i hope that you'll be fine soon. don't worry about it too much.

Posted by: hi at March 30, 2004 12:20 PM

i may know u oni thru the net.
so
i may not get wat u r tokkin bt
i may get wat u r tokkin bt
but anyhow i do feel da pain if u get wat u r tokkin bt.
n if i dun get wat u r tokkin bt..den jez slap me off like a fly.
but i think love is never meant to hurt. it's meant to be alwiz happy with clouds and butterflies and laughter, kisses and hugz. when it gets sour, guess it's jez not meant to be.
again i may not know wat u r tokkin bt, so if it's irrelevant. ignore it.
muacx

Posted by: chriss at March 31, 2004 05:15 PM

*confused* um..

if any of you are anything like me, you like to dress up in your mothers underwear and walk around the house trying to seduce your father.

Posted by: aaron at March 31, 2004 09:43 PM

er aaron, you ok?

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